Chapter 12 - Manifest Destiny

One year ago I made a list of the only three things I wanted in my life:
1) a job
2) an apartment to myself
3) no boyfriend

I tried to return to Seoul to reach this goal; I believed that was where I would find the solitude that I sought. But I couldn't get back there. I fought as hard as I could, but I just couldn't get past the legal barriers that prohibited me from returning for work.

My life took on a downward spiral from there, leading me from San Francisco to Frankfurt, Koszalin to Paris, Los Angeles to New York, and back to Paris again, in a constant search for something real to grab a hold of.

I never did find that foothold. Even though there were moments I thought I might have, I had been consistently mistaken...

Here I am however, at what was seemingly the bottom of bottoms, and I'm slowly discovering the hidden reality that in fact I have somehow done it; I have completed my list... and I'm not really sure how.

All I know is that as of today, December 1, 2008, I now have a job (that I love), an apartment to myself (which is in a cool area and isn't far from my job), and no boyfriend (...YES!). At 30 years of age, all I can say.... is that it's about time.

(Go me.)