Friday, November 21, 2008

Chapter 9 - Where is this path taking me...

I sit here and flip through pictures from these past years, and I think about myself from then, and now.

It's like I've been on a rampage through life, approaching it with enough energy to climb a mountain. And then I take my pauses, where I let life slow down to a standstill. I go back and forth, back and forth, back and forth, and I wonder now, what the hell am I trying to do?

Where am I trying to go?

How do I learn to rope in these emotions that bring me so high, and drop me so low?

And why do I choose to do this in Paris?

Why Paris?

I feel alone here. And it's strange. I do have friends here in the city, and in others, but something here, now, feels very solitary.

I need this path to reveal its intentions eventually. Because, for now, as it rains outside again, I'm lost.

I'm confident that things are going to be okay, but still, I'm lost.

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